Exam dah habis DOH! ahah

Ive lost the will
God forgive me..give me the strength

I'm not doing too well

It feels like it'll never end

From practically hitting the ground running to walking to crawling n now to dragging myself to the finish line :(

Anyways everything around me has been so depressing lately..i feel heavier than ever

Maybe if i close my eyes tight and wish really hard, i might open my eyes to a drum-kit :(

Oh how i miss the freedom of having sticks in my hands, tunes in my head and beating away all my worries n troubles..n yea anger

"The drumset, my sanctuary" so i used to say..id be lucky now to get even 10 mins to play on my own . I guess theres always the good in it, ive gotten to explore more instruments

Isn't it gorgeous..

A close of mine had just gotten mugged by two men with a parang..got injured in the process..definitely glad he is ok.. =) welcome to the rob thomas gang (inside joke)

And to dear kuk..i feel i wasnt much help.. i didnt feel like i gave good advice nor did i cheer u up n got ur mind off it..cudnt reli entertain ya n make u laugh ..but im glad ur taking it strongly n moving on..remember i got ur back ya babe ..buddie!

Oh! n to man utd fans..AhahA! u LOST =P

I MISS U.. Im sorry for being busy .Love you so much...

DISAPPOINTED

One down 7 to go !

~ The thoughts in my head are the voices of torment~ -N.virik

DEEP SH*T. Thats what im in now. Exams are on wed n the past month bore more than a few emotional struggles. shall update on that later on

Probably wun be updating much till exams are over.. so cheers! im off

study break = life break.....

Dear diary...

my dog vomited on me today haha.. rather not elaborate..

its been awhile ya .. so lets start off with few things. Firstly,

Happy Birthday Adam..........POK!!(sry cudnt help myself)

This is Adam after a nite out at ole-ole bali n halo bali lol..which explains the coconut..but not reli the happy new year sign lol..had a goodnite out btw, even the club was a lil to cramp n the music was way too loud.. XD!

K la nyway,next up is i m to rot in my house for a month n study..i hope i do come out alive ,depression n murder free..AS is in a month time n im doubting with the rate im going, that i cover everything but i know i do my best ..God'll do the rest..

Um worst part is my bday is during the break..so im imagining it wouldnt be a good bday..spending my day at home studying, away from my baby, away from my friends... probably getting forced gifts from my family..n ppl wishing me just for courtesy sake..

But noe what? i might just be wrong lol..

This really creative card kai bing made for me...THX BING!!

She sed just incase i dun see u during the break,i made u this...i quite touched noe bing! Anyway thx alot for it..appreciate it

Anyway my update ends here.. Good Luck yea S1 study ur ass off

I Love u babe! Missed u so much
Havent felt this happy in a long time
This is definitely going to keep me going..u made my week =)

The potential of a day doesnt make up for actually has been done..


MY procrastination has become a harmful habit. Its obvious my short span of attention will only lead to my downfall.."time to buck up niven" i tell myself like a million times with no results. This isnt highschool no more,alot of money has been spent with very good results expected back

I pressure myself because the fear of disappointment haunts me.I rather not even imagine the face of disappointment on my family..Ghauvi..n worst off myself. Theres anxiousness strongly going about in me but the lack of discipline doesnt really make much of it..So what if i feel scared n nervous n motivated but am not able to sit myself n be serious with what im studying..

Time is running out..someone please put a gun to my head and sit me at my desk!!
Am even considering a peer tutor..Im desperate